Stories of Markova: Delving into the Narratives on Sexual Abuse Experiences of Gay Men

This qualitative research employs narrative analysis to explore the experiences of gay individuals who have encountered sexual abuse. The study delves into their personal narratives, tracing the trajectory of abuse from its onset, through the period of silence, and internal struggle, to eventual disclosure or continued suppression. Using in-depth interviews, the research captures the voices of the participants who often suffer in silence due to intersecting societal, familial, and personal factors. Findings reveal that many gay victims experienced the abuse in contexts marked by absent parental figures, neglect, and poverty conditions that created vulnerability and limited protection. In the beginning, participants often encountered sexual abuse within familiar environments, frequently perpetrated by trusted individuals. During the middle phase, victims reported confusion, fear, and emotional isolation, compounded by internalized stigma and the belief that no one would believe their truth due to their sexual orientation. This belief often led to prolonged silenced and psychological validation both from family, and community. In instance where victims attempted to seek help, they were met with resistance, and suppression. Family members, driven by fear of social shame and damaged to the family’s reputation, discouraged disclosure of the victims. This study underscores the urgent need for inclusive, trauma-informed interventions and safe spaces that acknowledge the unique experiences of gay sexual abuse survivors. It also calls for broader societal efforts to dismantle the silence surrounding male sexual abuse within the lGBTQIA++ communities.